new semester. new me. new men and whole lot more fun.

I never thought id really miss college that much. but i did.

Spring semester has been pretty damn fabulous so far. i love the fact that you have a whole new slate, new schedule. new weather. new clothessss :)

I'ts makes me happy. this time around i have a better understanding of how to study, what to study. when to start my papers. when to go to sleep. its like learning the ropes i guess. and now, its just better.

I've started going to the gym. ive started painting and drawing again. no friday classes. everythings just bettahhh.

As much as i miss my family and friends from home, college has really opened my eyes to my independence. so hear ye hear ye world. i D, am declaring my selfishness. this semester is all about me. all about whats good for me. because for all of you losers out there who refuse to let in the light. f you haha. id prefer to stay in my happy bubble this semester.

This semester is about music. and art. and everything that gets me. to some i may appear to be a spunky college cheerleader, whos entirely too short to have so many thoughts, but theres alot more under the surface. i am a nerd. i am a NERRRDDD..like so freaking weird haha. im a loser. im awkward. im shy and i sure as hell dont know when i want when it comes to relationships. i love fashion. i love extravagance. but i love simplicty. i love effortless beauty. honesty and grace. but most of all. i love myself. i come first. and nows the time to be selfish. because maybe today, or tomorrow or 5 years or 1o years down the road, i wont be alone and ill have to sacrifice my ambitions for the happiness of someone else. so for now, world, i come first. and i dont see anything wrong with that.

This is my anthem for personal growth. and this is my declaration to better myself and all that i know. this post isnt another ridiculous story of mine about walking into the wrong house party or getting stalked by one the schools athletic team managers, no. ..for those stories are soon to come haha. this is simply a little side note. for me. the side of D many dont even know about. the one with dreams and ambition and hope and optimism and romance. depth. which rarely ever gets the time of day. Im the girl who's always smiling and or laughing or doing both simultaneously. The girl who quite simply wants to be happy, and usually always is. The girl who sits online for hours, talking to stalkers who have no chance, and feeling bad for turning them down haha. the girl who listens to weird freaking music and has no shame. and the girl who desperately wants to be found.

So thats it kids. this is my personal promise. by the end of spring '10 im going to be in shape, driven, and a freaking rockstar.

dont judge me :) a girl can dream.

xoxo GOSSIP GIRL

... i had to haha.

until another time,

D.tales